Ten days

It almost got to a point when it felt like I am running on an escalator, tiring myself out unnecessarily whilst the contraption is moving at a steady pace on a pre guided path to destination nowhere! I decided to do something, just wanted to get off that escalator and march to my own different drummer and see where it goes.

I got a ten day break from what I do as a regular occupation. About what I do.., I am by definition a Placement & Training Manager at an Engg/Mgmnt college thats located in the beautiful surrounds of a town called Shimoga. What I do is not important than why I do it! We'll get into that later, but first about my ten days...

I couldn't quite remember my last vacation ever since I got back from UK. It has been a very soul searching experience since then, actually its been less of soul and more of searching. The fact is I have been at crossroads, and that too both professionally and personally. Again, this deviation shall be explored to the fullest in the course of these ten days. So without much of a prelude to the story thats unfolding, the journey started at 12.00 AM, Aug 06,2011. I was the only passenger in my car, and with the monsoons at its full fury I started off towards this little town near the Arabian coast called Mudibidre.

A new beginning...

To be honest, I have lost the connection that used to there with my inner self. From somebody who used to be very self aware, I am now turning into somebody who is detached from all productive pursuits and that very essential communication line with my inner psyche. A few events that happened over the last couple of years have had this effect on me. From that 'When I grow up stage..I am now actually in that stage when I should be taking a few steps and atleast be aware of where I am going and how its all going to add up..?

But I am a lil jilted at the moment, and still regaining composure from what has traversed in the recent past. Some of the qualities that I'd like to rekindle in my life are :

Joie De Vivre

Carpe diem

Dedication

Constant touch with my inner self

More power every hour

From this day on, the Aug 2nd 2010, I make a solemn promise, that I will post a blog each day and update the progress towards my personal goals.

Times like these...

Times when you slip into those dungeons,
Are like as though you are stuck there for eons.
Nothing seems to be working right,
And you are badly losing the fight.
Future appears in a sombre light full of dull & gloom,
Life feels like a sad old song gone out of tune.
You are so badly out of shine,
All you think of is to sit and whine.

In times like these, its so strange,
All the help you need is out of your range...
Hardly like those times when you laugh and everone is laughing with you,
And now when you are crying there is no one around but you.
But thats not the point Im trying to make,
Isn't life like the way you shape.
Everything is shortlived and nothing lasts forever,
The choice is ours, to laught or to cry till its all over.

Its funny when you realise life is like a mirror,
Laugh at it and its laughing with you, cry and it cries with you for sure.
In all these times, if there is something that doesn't stop,
Its that time which is ticking away in your watch.
So make sure as you are walking..,
Its only time that does all the talking.
For when the times comes for you to rest,
Its only time that you lived that can tell what was the best.


-03/09/2006...scribbled on a cemetry hill in Luton (UK)